Long Weekend

i was One that have lots of friends everywhere, taking care of my friends... i have friends everywhere and friends loves One. Maybe One changed, not so open anymore, too much pain in the road of live or misunderstanding of the idea of everything..

started with such joy: the courage brought me to happiness with him.
a call can make a differences!

then it was lovely..meet lots of people.. it was almost perfect.

but later when i realized
pain... included in broken heart.. yet, mine it is almost not yet broken.. it still hoping and Why?
made in yesterday promises with myself . no more mr.e in my life. too much words playing, and no feeling..it was starting to made me feel like im such a loser for not opening my heart for someone who deserves me better.
FYI:When One loves you and u dont love One back, stop recall One. One love's stay, and One keep trying till one day it was enough for One.

God's ways to make it happens!

Do you believe in God? I do. God lives in every heart of you. Today earthquake awaken us, reminds us in how mighty God can be. I was in BKR and leuwi panjang junction going home. It is different everyones life. I believe im choosing the right one. It is hard not to hurt someone's feeling, the easiest is just not to bother in that person. I loved someone or just curious for that 5 minute falling in love guy.. But, there are others who loves me. Why should i bother for that 5mins feeling? Maybe I'm just curious(should I be? thinking about how too much protein in the morning. FOR the REST of my 1 only 1 life?) . When it is love, we'll have each other:all my body and soul automatically. Sometimes, some people have simpler life but how would i understand? now, it is time to finish what needs to be done. God please help me Your needy one :) Amen.

hidup itu susah

hidup itu susah jadi ga pengen dibikin susah... susah nyenengin semua orang.. untuk saat ini g memilih untuk nurut sama mama. lebih deket sama keluarga... semua orang punya pikiran masing2 dan ini bikin bingung. kadang (if u were my best friend, or R still my best friend, or at least once was my best friend.. you'll know i'll give all my love to you) .
susah deh.. cari cowo.. susah deh cari kepastian... yang udah dikira bener eh ternyata ga bener juga.. udah dikenal2in tapi mendadak ilfil kali ya..
fokus demi masa depan, kalo ga sapa yg mu ngurus dirimu sendiri???

Menulis ilmiah

Setiap hari kita selalu belajar. Belajar.. hal2 baru dari berbagai ilmu, dari setiap orang, selalu mempelajari hal baru.

30062009

Dear papa,
you left us with no burden . you are a great man , simple and very honest.
you left us because you know its time, and we're ready.
we will love you forever, although you are hard to be understood, you are very easy to be pleased.
there are view modest guy in this world, one of them is my father.
For that I pray for my father whom will soon be welcomed in heaven andvery happy that you are now going to be close with God.
In the name of the Father, the Son , and the Holy Spirit.
Amen

:) I Love you

I love you forever.
You always listen to me anytime , and you dont care that it was last week or last month we talked we are still connected.
I love you because , you always have to say what you have to say even sometimes its not nice to hear.
You always thinking what best for me emotionally.
I love you because , I understand after a conversation with you.
You care, honest, ambitious.
I love you , you are always forgiving me.
I was careless, you cried.
You forgave me.
I am selfish sometimes, but you dont.
Now you are so far away, but you are always in heart.
I love you sister Chink2 :)

When i knew u liked me, I replied... i developed my feeling. . i think it was mutual. . as I know now, it is not or u just decline or doesnt want to show ur feeling.. its okay, i am bold to have told u what i feel, but it is for me.. i cant be thinking about u all the time , while u dont :) God forgive me for my selfishness..Amen

The truth about life:life is Complicated

I believe that she's telling the truth.. Tears came out, I saw.. they broke up. it's quite final... almost 8 years going out and then suddenly they're only friend. It is impossible for her. He proposed to still kept the normal business relation. But , she said its impossible. It is easier if break up is break up. I agree with her. That is what I did with mine. It is almost impossible to erase ur feeling when 'someone that u loves that doesnt want u anymore' still around. It is hard, i can say, if u insist trying. When u are a woman with feeling, it is almost impossible.. there are exceptions, but what ? please tell me.
In my case I'm still waiting, thinking, imagining and waiting... love , love , love , love, love so confusing but hard to get.. for me there's no need to complicate, but:life is Complicated. Maybe it is easier to take care of urself rather than taking responsibility, full commitment of higher level of relationship. For me the road to this relationship is interesting:what friends says, what bestfriend says, what just people says.. what my sister says what my parent says what he says. What I says...who? What? confuse rite..Me Too !
God please lead the way You have chosen for me, whatever it will be, Im sure I can handle it, if I cannot it is not for me . Amen.

Responsibility vs affection

went out with gina today after campus. Did her bf really says those things to her?How is this long term relationship going to b in the future? I talked with vq about 2 hours... about her life, she wants to quit her job; about how i am, from her point of view: how needy of affection the person i am. it is so not suitable for uncaring person like u... its just a phone call away.... but u explain it with responsibility is number 1.. :) ask me for anything! this blog is only my reminder of plot in my head. Had have love, had lost loves too... try to ignore some of good advices given from vickieh, but i must b wiser than bfore.
God , please give me good understanding about this situation in my life right now.Amen

My dad today..

He is sooo cute... he says: "people should live normal, natural" concerning my soft lenses... if it is destructive dont do it... but he smokes :p proofed that he do what he wants... like me haahahhahaha... well maybe i'm in love, but if it is not my good way........so forget him... i still have long life to choose along the way... Right?! God help me for my life... please give me strength to love myself and people around me. Amen

Dentist 4th step

Thank's God its Friday? or Friday I'm in Love. Neither of that.. it is my dentist appointments again. My mom willingly to come, gave me such a relieve (plus on additional dinner and shopping etc hi2). She talksss soooooo much, so different from me?? im not like her sometimes... well we discussed about :Men, Married Man, Men, Life, Men , Men, Men, Men, Men, Marriage, and children.... interesting... something i never understand from talking with fellow friends.. well except for the married ones, but still mom is the greatest love of all.. it is the noblest service of all. Thank you God for today. Thank you God for giving me mom like mine.. Amen.

Freedom

all i want is Freedom.. for writing my blog.. who read it anyway ;p
bla bla bla heart burst of mine.. it had a point at the time. . memories is always in my head :)

Live High

I try to picture a girl
Through a looking glass
See her as a carbon atom
See her eyes and stare back at them
See that girl
As her own new world
Through a home is on the surface, she is still a universe

Glory God, oh God is peeking through the blinds
Are we all here standing naked
Taking guesses at the actual date and time
Oh my, justifying reasons why
Is an absolutely insane resolution to live by

Live high
Live mighty
Live righteously
Takin it easy
Live high, live mighty
Live righteously

Try to picture the man
To always have an open hand
And see him as a giving tree
See him as matter
Matter fact he's not a beast
No not the devil either
Always a good deed doer
And it's laughter that we're making after all

The call of the wild is still an ordination why
And the order of the primates
All our politics are too late
Is this assembly singing of gratitude
Practising their lovin for you

Live high
Live mighty
Live righteously
Takin it easy
Live high, live mighty
Oh live righteously

Take it all,
And just take it easy
And celebrate the malleable reality
You see nothing is ever as it seems
Yeah this life is but a dream

Lift me up to the almighty
Raise your hands and start acknowledgin


Live high, live high
Live mighty, mighty, mighty,
Oh live righteously
Takin it easy
Live high, live mighty
Oh live righteously
Just take, just just taking it easy
Live high
Oh live mighty, mighty
Oh live righteously
Take it all, just take it, take it easy
See live high,
Oh live righteously
Just take it easy
...

by Jason Mraz

24052009

today...woke up so early05.30... talked to my sister about lots, then had breakfast with my mom talking about many hings,then Lunch:nanny's pavillion with vq n ara, caught my eyes on some items at atmosphere, must shop there! dinner at home , but dinner at midori , then hangout at brussel spring..i hate annoyingness,but i am also so quiet..

....... life is different for everyone... but sometimes it combines..........bcoz we socialize.... and life combines :) 3 days back, i was having somewhat toothache complication..
On wednesday... i hang out with girlfriends to watch Night at the museum 2 (without jessy who's in bali).... thursday, didnt went to church, but went out with adrian and a friend from jkt... today.. goiing to the dentist again... hope i will trust her this time :) if not, i'll never go there ever.. i believe on second chances :) about love... i learnt from my friends about gossip talks, guys talks: guysss... are just more selfish? or his prestige is more than anything that he have to save , so i should text him more often... but what ever... girls have to wait ^^

quarter life crisis/ toothache?

@ home all day... nothing is wrong with me.. only my teeth is not friendly.. i have bunch of plans for tomorrow :) i have friends.. i need massage........

Teeth is sensitive matter

today...went to class in the morning, late... WHy why why... i should have been early, woke up wayy on time... mr. nico let me in and i still can sign the present ^^i was the only one who handed in paper, others they collectthe rar for "RIA".. then...... Algorithm:maybe i was thinking too much.. but is Mrs Christine talk about me swimming refering to her friend's children... then i had to meet up my mom, went to this new dentist... somehow i couldnt trust her..it was fine the first teeth... even not.. i was trying to.. i felt like it was smaller carities then the hole she made... The second tooth, it was worst.. i was gonna jump out the dentist chair.. went home.. mumbling to my mom how i dont trust her.. and thinking of going to tante Swanny, or my old dentist.. came home, called nana n vq, cried it out loud.thanks God for the meal i havent pray hihi... thank you for today... forgive the dentist if she is wrong, forgive me if im wrong..Amen

Angels n Deamon

learn at Krisma.. too fanatic of something is not what we shall do! Tho, it is important to have ur own faith, personality... i was watching other bit of IT Crowd bfore church.... watch Angel & Deamon. It is a good movie..and making me Wish i could get marry in Vatican :p God, thank you for today. i was falling in love for 15 minutes today hehee...Amin

today.. woke up late... late lunch... watch IT Crowd.. Isnt it funny this movie.. got a call from my bestfriend, I am going to be her maid of honor!! :) i am so happy for you two :) went to viewing.. listened to the sermon.. how death collected family together. went back home.. watch IT Crowd again... hey, r u telling me something from the movie guys? well, just wait...and see.. Thank you God for today, Amen.

My journal starts today

Today , I went to campus.. went to the class.. She is such a dear my lecture Mrs.Saron. Then, I went to SAT. Sat there, have fluent conversation with Bimo about lots of thing... had lots of thoughts.. it was weird... here in my mind... had lots of question for poor mr Francis..simple thoughts of what I might have to do for this flowcharts... but somehow it is too simple.. later, i went to Banana Inn met with Farah and Bean then went to Sampoerna for swimming with Jessy, Diana, Dian. Had dinner @glosis ciwalk and had a bottle of wine, MV. What a wonderful day.. went home... and chat.. made me realize that this isnt happening... its not it ;p But Thanks God I am what I am now... I dont want myself to be anyone else :) God bless me, Amen.

Rule #1: First Date

I like guys to bring flowers and buy some gifts– not expensive things, just romantic things. They should make it personal, or else you can feel there’s no love in it. I like men to pick me up and bring me to a candlelit dinner and then take me out to dance. Lunch is also a nice move in the beginning because it’s sensitive – you don’t show that you have to rush into sex.

Maturity

Maturity counts not by age ... i realized it perfectly last Sunday @Krisma when I was late for the group meeting and got this perfect detention. It is hard to be mature all the time. Believe me ,we can be more successful in life when we learn to be mature. Im just realizing things more clearly everyday now.. Thank you God for opening my eye of heart and guide me all the time to reach higher level of maturityAmen:)

My Man

My best friend, Vq told me to write these down :)
(read: The Secret, what you want will come to you)

What I Want from A Man :
I'm his #1
He has to be stronger than me.
Communication flow easily.
He is mature, romantic, loyal.
He got friends who respect him.
He respect me, and care about my feelings.
He got something that he believes(religion, culture).
Maybe he doesn't know yet himself, but he knows he wants to be with me.
He believes in love!

My name is : Genevieve Livia Sutedja

Heaven

This is the ideal picture of Heaven for me. God with arms wide open, welcoming us. . . .
The idea of Heaven makes me , me..... the good me :)

Writing by George carlin when his wife just died

Isn't it amazing that George Carlin - comedian of the 70's and 80's - could write something so very eloquent...and so very appropriate?

A Message by George Carlin:

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

If you don't send this to at least 8 people....Who cares?

George Carlin

Something

this is* something i want in my life:

is bcoz its one not many :)

DESIRE TO LOVE


LOVE FOR FOOD



UNCONDITIONALLY LOVE

LIFE

choose Life!
choose a subject!
choose a pet.
choose marriage..
choose a job.
choose a religion...
choose SOMETHING!