:) I Love you

I love you forever.
You always listen to me anytime , and you dont care that it was last week or last month we talked we are still connected.
I love you because , you always have to say what you have to say even sometimes its not nice to hear.
You always thinking what best for me emotionally.
I love you because , I understand after a conversation with you.
You care, honest, ambitious.
I love you , you are always forgiving me.
I was careless, you cried.
You forgave me.
I am selfish sometimes, but you dont.
Now you are so far away, but you are always in heart.
I love you sister Chink2 :)

When i knew u liked me, I replied... i developed my feeling. . i think it was mutual. . as I know now, it is not or u just decline or doesnt want to show ur feeling.. its okay, i am bold to have told u what i feel, but it is for me.. i cant be thinking about u all the time , while u dont :) God forgive me for my selfishness..Amen

The truth about life:life is Complicated

I believe that she's telling the truth.. Tears came out, I saw.. they broke up. it's quite final... almost 8 years going out and then suddenly they're only friend. It is impossible for her. He proposed to still kept the normal business relation. But , she said its impossible. It is easier if break up is break up. I agree with her. That is what I did with mine. It is almost impossible to erase ur feeling when 'someone that u loves that doesnt want u anymore' still around. It is hard, i can say, if u insist trying. When u are a woman with feeling, it is almost impossible.. there are exceptions, but what ? please tell me.
In my case I'm still waiting, thinking, imagining and waiting... love , love , love , love, love so confusing but hard to get.. for me there's no need to complicate, but:life is Complicated. Maybe it is easier to take care of urself rather than taking responsibility, full commitment of higher level of relationship. For me the road to this relationship is interesting:what friends says, what bestfriend says, what just people says.. what my sister says what my parent says what he says. What I says...who? What? confuse rite..Me Too !
God please lead the way You have chosen for me, whatever it will be, Im sure I can handle it, if I cannot it is not for me . Amen.

Responsibility vs affection

went out with gina today after campus. Did her bf really says those things to her?How is this long term relationship going to b in the future? I talked with vq about 2 hours... about her life, she wants to quit her job; about how i am, from her point of view: how needy of affection the person i am. it is so not suitable for uncaring person like u... its just a phone call away.... but u explain it with responsibility is number 1.. :) ask me for anything! this blog is only my reminder of plot in my head. Had have love, had lost loves too... try to ignore some of good advices given from vickieh, but i must b wiser than bfore.
God , please give me good understanding about this situation in my life right now.Amen

My dad today..

He is sooo cute... he says: "people should live normal, natural" concerning my soft lenses... if it is destructive dont do it... but he smokes :p proofed that he do what he wants... like me haahahhahaha... well maybe i'm in love, but if it is not my good way........so forget him... i still have long life to choose along the way... Right?! God help me for my life... please give me strength to love myself and people around me. Amen